when you need me, I'll be there for you.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

on friday night i stayed up to watch yamakasi.
awesome awesome AWESOME!!
parkour everywhere.
no transportations in the movie.
all they did was jump on bamboo building, jump around in the gym.
and...hahaha...Kien is kind of cute. :P
great!
i want the first part!
i want to watch it!!!!!!!!!
yahhhh!!

hm...
let me see what i could talk about.
..............................
ouh yes.
the 'skinny' jeans ad i saw pasted on sbs buses.
just the idea of naming it 'skinny' jeans is dumb.
not many people are skinny so why make the jeans in such a way that only a certain number of people can fit in?
i dont even know if i could fit in one.
ok...not saying that im skinny but doesnt anyone think it's dumb??
this is something that encourages women or ,to be specific, young girls to go on crash diets.

i think im crazy.
commenting on something that's obivously stupid.
sheeeesh....

{ 3:14 pm }
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Saturday, July 29, 2006

yes i do forget.
on thursday during sfl.
hahaha...they thought us this relaxation exercise but most of us girls ended up sleeping in the hall.
that includes me.
i wasn't sleeping literally.
but i was about to. we had half an hour to sleep.
and wake up.
actually the trainers gave us instructions as what to do to destress ourselves.
hahaha...one thing im very good at.
:P no need teach.

{ 10:00 am }
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Friday, July 28, 2006

All of you must be wondering "what the heck does she mean hold up for listening!?!?!?"
Wait for awhile.
I put a song here.
hahaha...Zy is so bored of this song. mwahaha...suker?
She knows what song im talking about.
By the way, there is 'my boy lollipop' too. not here. duh. On singingfish. cute song yes? teheee...

Ok Ok.
So i had to stay back just now.
last minute notice by mrs sung.
pitied her that she got all the way up to the fourth floor just to tell us. plus, she is pregnant. so that makes it twice maybe a gazillion times more hard. but i went because at least i get to practice maths rather than be at home playing the computer the whole afternoon.
heheh...
seems like i was the only one who pitied my teacher. no one else turned up.
except for a sec5 boy. haziq i think.
sat there for one and a half hours studying maths with mr lourdesamy.
ahahahai...punyerla gerek!
yeah right........
wasn't that bad actually.
i dont really have anything to update about this week other than my english oral.
which i wish i could re-do.
was so stupid!
all band 2!
argh...my fault.
i could blame no one for the outcome.
band 2!!! gah!!! one more mark maybe band 1.
haish....what's done is done.
'o' levels oral coming.
guess i have to make it right for this one...

{ 5:30 pm }
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Saturday, July 22, 2006

i just got back from the last day of adam khoo's workshop.
starting to miss them already.
tehee...especially my trainers, gary, candice and danny.
funniest people i know.
so today we learnt something about believing in ourselves and believing in everything we want to do.
and yes there were tears.
i think i cried the most just now.
fizah had to hug me and begged me to stop crying. but then, ironically, i cried more!
hahaha...
but i would like to say thank you to fiza, iqa, mardhati and khai. and also firman. no he didnt hug me. obviously. just sent me an sms to cheer me up because he saw my really crappy face just now. argh!
i knw ive not been there for some of you guys.
im sry.
but just hope that you guys know, i love you!
and i love my family.
and i LOVE MY PARENTS SO MUCH!

{ 10:45 pm }
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Friday, July 21, 2006

it's 9 pm and i just got back from school. adam khoo's workshop.
hell, second day was fun. ok..today was the second day.
first day was fun too. but i prefer the second one.
so everyone else was weeping and sobbing just now.
noticed that i said 'everyone else' and not all of us?
aha!
guessed it right!
i didnt cry.
hm...
no no wait.
i cried for about 5 seconds.
then i just listened to the whole thing the trainer said.
was like an imaginary thing.
that was when i noticed that i didnt have much to cry about.
the trainer was telling us about two separate doors with our parents inside.
and i cried when it came to the part when the trainer, danny, said that you open one door and saw your mom.
ok. not that part.
open door, see mother, cry for what?!!? siow?
this was what made me weep.
me showing my lousy grades to my mother and she telling to herself that she wasnt a good mother.
that's the most guiltiest feeling a child could ever feel.
i cant see my mother cry.
my mother cannot see me cry.
good!
so now if a lady starts to cry and you see me cry, you'll know we're family.
heh..sorreh. making lame jokes are my specialities.
so that was probably the only part i cried from the whole long story.
kind of scary to hear 'wolf cries' in the whole room.
don't know who but it really did sounded like wolves howling.
then after that, we had dinner.
i happy happy go down to the canteen with fiza and ira.
my eyes not swollen.
can smile.
but they both had swollen eyes.
cried i guess.
duh!
eat eat eat, got back up to the library, and that's when i made a theory.
hahaah...ok..maybe not theory.
but whatever.
the only person who can make one cry, is himself.
for in my case is herself la.
im a girl what.
that only applies to me.
because...
we were made to write letters to ourselves.
so the first statement read "dear self,"
and the rest..is confidential.
sealed and locked away.
danny said we could go anywhere in the library to write our letters.
wondering why it's letters?
one for ourselves.
one for parents.
so i went to this dark spot in between the bookshelves.
ira was with me.
she sat on the outer part.
got a bit light la.
i sat on the inner part.
nice.
warm and dark.
so i started writing.
i just sprawled everything that came into mind.
every damn empty promises.
everything.
then looking at what i was writing, i started to cry.
and one sentence from my letter to myself really did made me cry.
it reads. [ a little peek wont hurt. ]
" im sorry to be such a disappointment to my parents. "
even now i've got tears dwelling up in my eyes.
but im not going to cry.
this line really saddens me.
a lot.
was when i realise that i really did disappoint them with my shitty grades.
it really did.
ok.......
enough about the crying and swollen eyes.

i just got my finger cut.
hooray.
i learnt another new thing today.
that broken glass can really cut, and you wont even feel the pain.
i cut it in the library.
must be wondering..
broken glass...? in library....?
no connections?
no?
here's what happened.
danny threw a glass and smashed it on the floor on purpose.
it's part of the workshop so if you want to know why, go sign up for it or something.
so me, being an itchy finger and curious, picked up a piece of broken glass that they didnt see and did not sweep away and i fidget with it.
i traced every inch of it on my finger.
no cuts.
another discovery, broken glass do cut, just that if you dont press it, you cant see the blood.
if you just used your finger to go round it, it would still cut you just that, you wont know the cuts there because you dont feel a thing.
but look carefully.
there are lines.
there will be scars.
press a little harder.
and oh yes, there will be blood.
interesting discovery.
and now im letting it clot.
because why?
blood clot prevents blood from profusely flowing out and stops foreign particles from entering the blood system through the wound.
makes sense?
no? you probably take physics.
yes? so you have studied your biology chapter 8.
i would not go in details how the blood clots.
maybe one day when im revising again then maybe i'll tell how.
that was for today.

yesterday, we had to remember this list of 30 words.
hopefully i get them all.
here goes.
statue.
encyclopaedia.
crown.
hyperbola.
janitor.
umbrella.
fluorine.
oak tree.
photosynthesis.
banana.
fan.
hair.
glucose.
policeman.
zoo.
hand phone.
japan.
management.
lungs.
parameswara.
bun.
shoe.
tree.
door.
hive.
sticks.
heaven.
gate.
wine.
hen.

for monday.
hm...
lemme see if i can recall anything.
yah.
mt listening compre.
they aired it on radio.
then it started at 5.
so we were all seated by 4.20pm.
kiasu, but safe...
aha..
i sat at the very furthest seat possible there is from the freaking radio.
then at around 5, got ready already to start.
wanted to open booklet.
skali...
the next thing that played on the radio was this malay song!
what the hell!??!?
i laughed my butt out uh at the back.
funny stuff.
and did i tell you i blurted out those "what the hell?!?"
and then start to laugh.
like siaochabo.
haiyo.
nvm.
what's in the past, doesnt matter.

wednesday
mrs sung wasnt there.
so mr justin took over the class.
we happened to have a bio test that day.
and he happened to be a bio teacher.
so he taught us biology.
chapter 7.
nutrition in plants.
the complex sugars.
fructose, sucrose..
then no more.
but my class being "super brilliant",
got somemore.
fructose, sucrose, east cose, west cose, ivory cose..
what the heck!

ok ok.
gtg ppl.
bye!

{ 9:56 pm }
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Saturday, July 15, 2006

just got back from school.
damn tired.
first of all, we went to the beach early in the morning.
for a good long stroll.
wah....
no lah.
pick up litter.
tired.
but after that, took pictures with ira's lumix cam.
that was fun.
posing sket uh sumer.
hahaha.
at the beach, we saw three dead organisms.
one luohan fish.
one tortoise.
and one fish buried in the sand.
thought i would get to see something thats alive. but...unfortunately didnt get to.
in the bus for the return trip, mrs lee was doing a head count.
aisyah go and hide behind the last seat.
so mrs lee thought one of the students was missing.
funny seh.
then when teacher turned away, aisyah got back to her seat.
the teachers were starting to panic and they made another count.
34.
lucky.
haha.

arrived at school go the charity bazaar.
didnt but anything.
wasnt hungry. isnt hungry.
just walk walk with lina, wana and saleha until 12.
during that period of time, sylvester sim came to our school.
at first we thought the kids were lying.
we were in the ava room.
then two boys came in and said " aiyah! that sylvester fake one lah!"
then wana wanted to see it for herself.
so i followed her outside to the foyer.
fake their head lah!
he was there.
in my school.
mwahaha..got his autograph.
it's because that the girl in my school who participated in the project superstar, she knows him.
i thought why he would come for no reason.
hm...
was great.
but im not an idol fan.
plus plus plus, he isnt the idol.
just the runner-up.
:p

then went home.
with a balloon.
haha..actually i already gave it to lina.
she was so scared that i might pop it.
hahahaha....should have seen her face when i smaccked that balloon while she was holding it.
haish...
and here i am.
tired.
exhausted.
and i have tuition in awhile!
argh!

{ 1:11 pm }
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Friday, July 14, 2006

let me loosen up a little aite.
YYYYYYYAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!

owite.
let's begin.
i feel a little backwards today.
so im going to start from friday. [ bukan aper..maseh bleh ingt jek. :p]

Friday
Just got back from school right now.
So early in the morning, the usual assembly at parade square.
Announcements and whatnot.
Then PCCG period.
mdm noreha talk talk.
about tomorrow's Beach Cleaning activity.
WEEEEEEEE!!!
I already know what im going to wear.
school pe tshirt and skirt.
duh.
but with my vans sneakers.
doesnt match but who cares.
i dont.
who does must be seriously obsessed with me. [ -_-']
ok ok.
then after pc.
got english.
did oral picture discussion.
i fear picture conversation.
freak out when i can't tell what the picture is all about.
hm...
after english we actually got poa but but but, there's a little change today.
just for today.
we had to go down to the ava room for health screening.
haish..
backbone problem again.
positive, as always.
since sec 2 i think.
but as long as i feel nothing it's alright i guess.
got out of the ava room and sat with the rest of my classmates.
haha.
funny funny.
got out only bone say "eh shoelace kao tak ikat!"
then i looked to see.
skali.....
my shoe no lace la!
slenge.
then i sat down uh.
beh the malay boys disturbed the lower sec boys.
qaiyum and bone most of the time.
take turns uh.
so everytime a boy wearing shorts walk pass us, either qaiyum or bone shouted.

"EH!! YOUR COFFEESHOP OPEN UH!!"
then the person would look down on his zipper.
we were all laughing our heads off.
gerek gerek.
not long after, mr leong [ss teacher] happened to walk by.
he also kena.
worst.
his reaction slow-mo one.
AHAHAHA....
laugh like no tomorrow.
so we just sat there until recess.
mdm poon also never brought us up.
oh ya!
mr jailani, mdm noreha and mdm suzana also walked by.
but this time, the malay boys were singing.
begging uh konon.
mdm noreha opened her purse and took out 20cents, and gave it to qaiyum.
teheeee...before leaving she took out this ten dollars note. kecoh uh. everybody want.
then recess.
fun.
get to eat rice.
Finally!
tu pon kene mintak cut queue.
thanks to qaiyum.
haha..actually it was supposed to be fizah only who could cut to the front but then all three of us followed to the front.
mwahahaha....was really chaotic.
orders everywhere.
wonder how the makcik does it every single day.
maybe that's how.
she's used to it every single day.
hah! wow.
answered my own question.
after that, it's just dread up to dismissal.

Thursday.
Hm...
we had a sexuality education workshop.
it should have been up to 3.30pm but we were released one and a half hours early.
just because the person was running a high fever.
pity.
she showed us this very oldies video.
about the teenagers in the other parts of the globe talking about what else if not sex.
i was shocked to see even kids younger than myself talking about sex like they were experts.
more pity.
then came the abortion video.
not that i've never watched it but it won't hurt watching it for the second time right?
when i watched it for the first time, i was only fourteen.
didn't affect me then.
i just watched it for the sake of watching it.
some of my friends were crying back then in 2004.
but i wasnt.
i didnt know why they were crying.
hmmm...
sad to say, it didn't affect me much this time too.
the freezing coldness of my heart can accept no warmth. [ what the.... haha.]
it kind of saddened me a little though to see an almost formed foetus being aborted.
like 9 months maybe.
big enough to be alive.
sad isn't it?
after the whole workshop thing, all of us got this bookmark which reads "adoption. not abortion."
then at the corner, is written "Pregnancy Crisis Service"
hahaha...wonder what others might think if they see me in possesion of it.
dont really care. just thoughts.
i put it as my chemistry textbook bookmark.
then what else, i studied chemistry at tuition lah!
haiyo.
but the bookmark is nice.
should see it for yourselves.

Wednesday.
um...morning got p.e.
the usual as those last few weeks.
then we came back to class all tired.
by the time it was english, half the class were living zombies.
poor mdm noreha.
could see that she was tired too.
haish.
tried to stay awake until biology.

then for the last two days, nothing happened.
hehe..

{ 1:43 pm }
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Saturday, July 08, 2006

i'll make this a short one.
well, i'll try to at least.
just woke up.
and i should be studying biology.
teheee...

btw, anyone noticed the song?
is it playing?

{ 9:24 am }
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Friday, July 07, 2006

Aitez...
this week's updates.
monday.
dont know.
but i remember from wednesday.
haha..

Wednesday.
P.E!!
ok.
so here's what happened.
fizah, ira, aisyah and i played badminton. at first.
we took the equipments and went to the back of our school.
near the back gate.
so it's fizah aisyah.
ira and me.
then i tried to serve[ is this the correct spelling or is it 'surf?'] but i'm sure you geniuses know what im trying to say here.
tried doing that and the shuttlecock went straight up!
shot up to the roof of that shelter.
shit!
we went to tell mr marcus uh.
happy happy go.
like we did nothing wrong.
actually it's not wrong.
it's a mistake.
oh..yar la.
wrong la.
teacher also dont know what to do.
so he said later he'll tell what needs to be done.
haish.
racquets but no shuttlecock?
screw badminton.
ira and i went to the top basketball court.
joined the three boys.
soccer again!
hahaha...fun.
it was only the five of us.
bone, adam, faqar, ira and i.
how to make into teams?
no problem.
ira joined bone and adam.
i'm with faqar.
fun...because he had to do all the running.
haha..im at the so-called goalpost.
then he passed passed i ran..
beh da nak shoot...
skali....
the post was too low.
bodoh!
i kicked, then the ball hit the low "top-bar".
haiyo!
laugh laugh.
in the end, we didn't know who won.
didn't really count the scores.
oh ya!
half way through the "soccer" game, fizah and aisyah came to the court.
guess why?

their shuttlecock also stuck at the roof!
hahaha...
funny.
but p.e was short because we practically wasted one period trying to do a memory test.
no lah.
we had to recall all the events and CIPs we did for the whole 4 years.
took one whole period away!
some people either have thousands and thousands of cip hours or, their memory just sucks.
after p.e went to maths.
almost everybody was sweating.
mrs sung told us we needed to get an air freshener put up in class so that after every p.e period the whole classroom wouldnt stink.
no problem with me.
actually i didnt smell the stink.
hahahahah....

Thursday.
hm...english?
no..sfl.
let's talk about sfl shall we?
hahaha...
we read this passage given to us.
quite interesting.
especially this particular page where mdm noreha made us read this one word.
hush...
im not going to tell the word.
it's a vulgarity.
oooooooooooooops...BIG clue.
go figure.
then tell me what you think it is.

yah...
so that's how the week went by.
and today we get to get home early!
yay..
well not that early.
it's at 12.
hahaha..
later my geniuses.

{ 1:08 pm }
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Sunday, July 02, 2006

WC updates.
England lost to portugal.
damn!
now i dont have any team to support!
then for the later match, Brazil lost to France.
that's shocking.
maybe france or germany would win the world cup this year.
germany looks like the 'solid' team.
y'know.
solid squad. solid captain. please...they're on home ground.

okok.
enough about soccer. haha.

so...today.
going to class later.
class start already.
haish...lazy leh.
want to sleep some more.
then after class, go kak cik house.
kenduri arwah.
didn't even feel like a year had went by.
so fast time flies.
yesterday while watching the england portugal match i slept.
haha. didn't even reach half time.
too tired yesterday.
let's see what i did.
hm...morning at home.
afternoon at home do sketches.
then evening went tuition study chemistry.
yesterday wasn't supposed to be a tiring day.
but then right, tuition yesterday damn boring.
was alone in the hot room!
air con busted.
stayed inside that oven for almost 3 whole hours.
i was fanning myself even though the back window was opened.
then got 2 jakuns come in, stand at the window, shout shout like crazy people, then closed it.
mak! peh panas!
i started fanning myself more.
after closing the window, they went out, got another one jakun come in then when he was about to go out, he closed the door also!
not that i mind the room has no ventilation, but it was bloody hot!
the window closed. the door closed.
i opened the window soon after.
didnt work.
no breeze came in.
stuffy room.

but nvm la.
that was yesterday.

aites...
gtg.
ciao!

{ 9:10 am }
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Saturday, July 01, 2006

haha..this one is for azee to look at. she wants to marry him.

oh look! it's torres with that achilles impersonation. yeow!
o0o0o0o...mwahaha.

yesterday i stayed up to watch germany vs argentina.
sad isnt it that argentina lost.
i really wanted them to win.
sedih uh tengok muker satu satu.
especially riquelme's.
muker so kesian gitu.
ehekz.
haiz...but the funny part of that game was when he was being substitued uh.
walk out the field..terhege hege.
kene booed by the german fans..
but he relax only walk out.
they were leading by one that time.
no wonder lah.
no hurry.
then at the end of the penalty shootout, the argentinian players tried to beat up schweinsteiger.
maybe he said something.
but my brother said maxi rodriguez punched someone.
maybe it was that schweinsteiger person.

{ 12:19 pm }
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